quake us

i was totally disconnected with tv, radios, and most of the entertainment stuff ever since the year i had STPM...i didnt get this news myself but from others' msn nicks..another earth quake...
sometimes i wonder, why am i here? why am i doin things im doing?...ppl are suffering all over the world, and look what im doin here...why do we study? for the exam? well, im not an ambitious scholar, i dont think im able to do anythin good to anyone else even if i got good results...we drown ourselves in notes and books, swallow everythin...after the hateful exam, enjoy! every short-term memory that went into our brain subsides...and, this is my life in university...
...well, now, im here sitting in my room in the morning, raining heavily. i remember few days ago ppl were complaining bout no rain, how hot the weather is...i was supposed to go to my lab...well, now im just sitting here and wait...